[Scapegoat]

long, you bet. reason for jail, bolded

Here is my story. Im going to start from the very beginning and tell my life story because I am bored.

You better be real bored to read this book......

I was one of those people that took everything for granted most of his life. Now I realize how good I really had it, and how bad things can get. I didnt have all that bad of a childhood, but it wasnt the greatest. When I was real young my parents got along most of the time, and we always did things as a family. As I got older (about 10 years old) is when they started not getting along. They didnt agree on how to raise us kids. My mom would let me do things my dad wouldnt allow, and she just said, "dont tell your father", or "dont let your father see you do this". So I felt like I had to hide things from my dad. That is NOT good for a kid. I felt kind of like my father was the enemy because he wouldn't let me do as much as my mom. My dad totally disagreed with the way my mom raised me (cant blame him) so they started arguing alot. It got to the point where my dad couldnt stand coming home to my mom, so he went to his friends house after work, and came home late at night falling over drunk. I have seen him come home and puke all over the place, and I was only about 10 - 12 years old. Dont get the wrong idea about my dad. He is a real good guy, he just had some problems like all of us. He also HATED his job at the post office. He hated life so bad he talked about killin himself all the time. I didnt think he was serious, then one day he told me about the time he was in the bathroom with a 357 magnum against his head. Hearing something like that makes u want to cry. my dad wanted to raise us kids properly but there is a few mistakes he made too. He used to talk bad about the government and talked about how someday they are going to take all our guns away. He said he was going start shooting at them before they take his guns away. We used to put pictures of bill clinton on targets and shoot at him with guns and bows and arrows. That is when my attitude about the government all began....

I didnt have the greatest child hood, but it wasnt too bad. We always lived in a nice house and drove newer cars. I was never physically abused either. My mom was never happy and thought moving would bring her happiness. We moved probably 15 - 20 times when I was a kid. I was always changing schools and never had alot of friends. I had absolutely NO confedence in myself so I got picked on ALOT in school. It was so bad I couldnt stand going to school. It got to the point where a big group of bullies stood in a circle around me and kicked me and crap like that. I never even fought back because of my confedence level. I am 6' 3 240 lbs right now, and I was always big in school. Does that tell you how low my confedence was??? I actually believed the kids that told me im not worth a crap. The funny thing is, they were the bums, not me! So I went through school thinking I am a piece of crap, never had any many friends, didnt EVER have a girlfriend. I hated myself.

When I was about 14 we bought 32 acres of property and had a house built on it. I had it good, except for my parents fighting all the time. My parents bought me a used 3 wheeler to ride around on the property. oF course I took it all for granted. My mom still complianed about everything. Complained that the house was a peice of crap, talked bad about my dad etc... Well I believed her for a while and thought everything sucked and wanted better. After being there for a few years I started to really enjoy the property and was not taking it for granted as much as I used to. Then when my parents were talking about splitting up and moving out of there, I realized I was about to lose all the property and my 3 wheeler. Then I really stopped taking it for granted and enjoyed it. My dad went on a hunting trip in Alaska in summer of 98. While he was up there my mom told all of us kids she was going to devorce him. BTW, i am the oldest. I have 2 sisters and a little brother. Anyway my dad didn't even know yet. When he came home I told him mom wants a divorce. Nice way to come home from a vacation huh? Isnt taht a load of crap that I was the one that told him, instead of my mom? Anyway, they ended up getting divorced and we all moved in with my mom at a cheaper house and my dad lived in a trailer at a trailer park. it was at this time my dad really got close with god and was truely happy. I loved going to my dads place to visit him. About a year later, my dad bought the house from my mom and took care of us, and my mom got remarried and moved in with the guy. To try to make this part of the story shorter, my siblings and I bounced back and forth living with my mom and dad. I ended up dropping out of school because I missed so many days. I went to night school and started making friends with the wrong people. I was always an honest kid and never did drugs or drank at all. Therefore, i was not accepted at all at that school I wasnt accepted anywhere so I gues it didnt really matter. Well I wanted to try to fit in so I started partying with those guys. I got in trouble in 2003 for pot. It was the first time I ever got in trouble. I should have just learned from my mistake and quit smoking pot and hanging with those guys, but i didnt. I kept smoking, violated my probation, and went to jail for 5 days. I kept a bad attitude about life. In late 2004 I got an apartment with a person I thought was a friend and his girlfriend. he smoked alot of pot and always got it for me. We ended up selling it, and sold probably a pound or more a week together. He started ripping me off, so I got a real bad attitude about life and started taking it out on the road in my 93 Sundance duster. Its fairly quick car (see the timeslips thread). I would drive 100++ mph no matter what the speed limit is. I didn't care at all. I finally got a ticket for 75 in a 45 zone, which put me over the 12 point limit so I got a measly 3 month suspension on my license. See how I made a big deal about nothing all the time??? All I had to do is move out of that A-holes apartment and get my own place. But instead I did crazy thngs and got in trouble. So anyway....Of course I kept drving. I got a ticket for driving on a suspended license and got fined up the A$$ for it, and lost my license even longer. I got a worse attitude and kept driving. When cops tried to pull me over I outran them. I totally blew them away with that car. Finally In August of 05 the cops had enough evidence that I outran them. I turned myself in and got a felony for fleeing and eluding 4th degree. I got off easy and didnt get any jail time. just probation. I quit driving for several month. I was starting to lose my attitude, but not completely. Then this April I decided to drive the car to the track to race it. On the way a Michigan state trooper tried to stop me. I panacked and outran him AGAIN, doin probably over 140 MPH! HOW STUPID CAN I BE?!?!?! I got away but I was almost out of gas, so my friend and I ran in the woods and started calling friends, looking for someone to come pick us up before the cops came. Well a few hours went by and they found us with the dogs. I was in Allegan county jail for 5 days before I got bailed out. I was convicted of fleeing and eluding 3rd degree, which is a 5 year felony. I am waiting for sentencing, which will be next friday. My lawyer thinks I am going to get about 4 - 8 months in the county jail for that. I quit driving again after I got arrested for that.....until one day my best friend came home from the air force. I partied my a$$ off. I was being somewhat responsible and rode my bike to his place. I rode back home, came inside then decided to DRIVE MY CAR to the store for some food. I was thinking its only 2 miles away, ill be fine. Well, on the way home from the store I passed out and ran into someones house and totalled the sundance. I took off running trying to avoid getting in trouble. I got hurt from the accedent. I either broke or sprain my ankle (still havent got it checked out) and I hurt my upper body. It was in ALOT of pain. The car didnt have an air bag, but I was wearing my seatbelt. Anyway I limped home through the woods, listening to police sirens. I hopped 6 foot fences, went through swamps and everything to get away. I did all this with a screwed up ankle and my upper body hurting like hell. The cops never found me that night. For some reason they didnt come to my aparment. The good news no one in that house got hurt. The next day I filed a false police report trying to get out of it. Two days later my stepmom told me friends of hers lived in that house I hit, and theres no way she can keep quiet about it. So I called the police and admitted everything. They gave me a ticket for driving on a suspended license, but charged me with a 4 year FELONY for the false police report. Now I am facing up to 9 years in prison. I am pretty sure I will only get county jail time though. The jails are crowded and my record isnt all that bad before all of this happended. My attorney agrees with me that ill probabably only get county jail time.

I finally learned my lesson. I am NOT going to get in trouble anymore. I got rid of my bad attitude. I plan to make soemthing out of my life. When I get out of jail I want to go to school and learn a trade. Preferably in the automotive field. I dont currently own a car, except for the broken daytona shelby (see the cars for sale forum) and I am not going to get another one for a while. I now realize how good I had it before and how I took it all for granted. I just want to stay out of trouble and someday get my license back.